We all say that every child is god like. Or it may be that every god is child-like.
Being with a small child (aged 3), I have experienced this many times.
Just before Chaytanya's 4th birthday, I wanted to record some insightful conversations that I have had with her, and hence I have been feeling a pull to write a blog post dedicated to some of these conversations. I will continue to update this post until her 4th Birthday. Below are just few of those, that I remember.
All of these conversations happened in Hindi.
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Chaytanyas said once, "Mama, mandir, masjid, gurudwara are in our heart"
Another time - "Mama, God is inside our heart (Bhagwan hamare dil mein hai)"
Once I was telling her, how we bought this home just before she was born. She asked me if this is my home. I said, "yes, it is my home."
She said, "Mummy, (apka ghar apke andar hai) your home is within you."
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Just before sleeping on some nights, I had started doing a Thank you prayer to god, which used to go like this.
"Thank you bhagwanji for blessing me with chaytanya etc. etc.". I never asked her to do the same or to follow me.
She used to listen to my prayer for many nights, and on one night she told me, shall I teach you a thank you prayer?
I said, "Yes"
She said, "(Aise bolo, thank you bhagwanji, apne andar aane ke liye). Thank God to come inside itself"
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On one occassion, I was putting chaytanya to sleep for her afternoon nap, rocking her on the rocking chair and she was in my lap. I started sharing with her about my journey. I told her that I have sought God, I have sought enlightment, I want to be free from Tanu, to be mukt.
She said: "Mama, talk to your Guru, he will free you (Aap apne guruji se baat karo, wo apko mukt karenge)".
I was plesantly surprised as I have not mentioned about my guru to her. In our home there are no daily rituals performed of any kind, except the ritual of spending time together without gadgets and eating together.
I asked her, "Do you know who is my Guru"
She said, "No"
I said, "Mooji and Osho are my Guru."
She said, "okay" and then she slept in my lap.
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On another occassion, I asked Chaytanya "How come you are always happy?"
She said, "I don't know"
I asked, "How do you feel when you see adults being unhappy, sad, angry?"
She said, "(Accha nahi lagta, mujhe lagta hai ki main inhe khush kar doon, japhi paon, paari karun). I don't like it, I feel like making them happy by loving them, hugging them."
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15-Dec-2024
Just before sleeping. when I was lying down with her in the night, with background music playing (ae dil-e-nadan), she asked me,
"Mama, Are you happy?
I said, "Yes, I am very happy"
She said, "Is it because you are with your baby ?"
I said. "Yes", As in that moment, I was truly happy just because I was with her.
She said, "Charlie (neighbour's dog and Chaytanya's friend) is also Hema Aunty's (our neighbour) Baby"
I said, "Okay, Chaytanya", her response somehow touched my heart.
I asked softly, "Chaytanya, will you guide me?"
She said, "Guide you for what?"
I said, "To be free from Tanu"
She said, "I told you, that you should talk to Mooji ji, your Guru ji. He will free you. Ask him to free Chaytanya and Papa also. Then we will also not die and we will also be mukt. (fir hum bhi nahi marenge, hum bhi mukt honge)"
Then she asked me if she can tell me a story.
I said, yes.
She told me a story that how she find all her friends (talking about 3 friends - Hari, Jas, Richa) who came to our house a day before), the same. She said that she finds that Hari is same as Jas, Jas is same as Hari. Richa is same as Hari, Hari is same as Jap. All are same mama. All are one."
Then she gave me a lot of sweet kisses and fell asleep.
