Take control...

The only thing you have at your disposal is 'Your Life'. No one else's life is in your hands.

What you want from your life...how you want to live it;
whether you want to live it in misery or in joy,
whether you want to live it in self pity or courageously,
whether you want to live it in throwing responsibility on others or taking responsibility in your own hands,
its your choice, its absolutely only your choice.

Its your life, and its in your hands and you can do anything with it. Wowwwww!!!
At least something is in our hands :)

Whatsoever choices you make, whatsoever you do with your life, one things is certain i.e.
Death, this life is certain to end one day.

Remind yourself that, remind again and again, so that you don't tend to waste a single moment of this life.

This life...
which has tremendous potential to be lived in the most beautiful ways one can ever imagine,
which has utmost capacity to be a totally content phenomena,
which gives you power to make choices of your own,
and trust me
existence has been very generous with us, this life is a gift to us and it is tremendously beautiful...

I live in wonder at existence, which conceived of such a creation as 'Life'

Take control of your life, only you can drive it...

Source of my existence....

When I laugh, 'I' laugh....
somebody cracks a joke, and 'I' laugh

When I cry, 'I' cry...
somebody is leaving me, and 'I' cry

When I dance, 'I' dance....
somebody might be playing some music, and  'I' dance

When I love, 'I' love...
hugging my beloved, or a small child, I melt down, and 'I' love

When I am silent, 'I' am silence
seeing the vast sea, the moon or the mountains, and 'I' become silent

Whatsoever happens on the outside, 'I' become dependent on that and react accordingly...

But isn't it clear that the source of laughter, cry, dance, love, silence is in 'me'
the situation might be created in the outside world, but if the source is not within me,
how could I laugh?
how could I cry?
how could I love?

The source is undoubtedly within 'me'
We have just forgotten it, and have become too indulged in the other, the outside....
hence all our blame of misery, is on the other
hence all our clinging with the other
hence all our fears of losing our happiness, if we lose the other
hence all our fears of being alone

The source is 'within'
doesn't that show the generosity of God, the universe, the existence...
each one of us, having our own source of infinite joy...

Ahhhh...I feel full of gratitude towards you 'o god'...
you have been so loving and kind 'o god'
the cause of all my misery is my unawareness
you have given me everything, I could have ever asked for...
only thing I need to find now,
is to be aware of 'The Source of my existence'
.

Why hurry???

I am reading a book named "ZORBA The Greek" and am loving every bit of it.

Sharing with you all, something of immense value...

The author "Nikos Kazantzakis" says...

     "I remembered one morning when I discovered a cocoon in the bark of a tree, just as the butterfly was making a hole in its case and preparing to come out. I waited a while, but it was too long appearing and I was impatient. I bent over it and breathed on it to warm it. I warmed it as quickly as I could and the miracle began to happen before my eyes, faster than life. The case opened, the butterfly started slowly crawling out and I shall never forget my horror when I saw how its wings were folded back and crumpled; the wretched butterfly tried with its whole trembling body to unfold them. Bending over it, I tried to help it with my breath. In vain. It needed to be hatched out patiently and the unfolding of the wings should be a gradual process in the sun. Now it was too late. My breath had forced the butterfly to appear, all crumpled, before its time. It struggled desperately and, a few seconds later, died in the palm of my hand.

    That little body is, I do believe, the greatest weight I have on my conscience. For I realize today that it is a mortal sin to violate the great laws of nature. We need not hurry, we need not be impatient, but we should confidently obey the eternal rhythm.

    I sat on a rock to absorb this New Year's thought. Ah, if only that little butterfly could always flutter before me to show me the way."

Nowhere to go... jaana kahan...

                                                            जीवन का पथ, जो है मैंने चला

                                                            मैं देखती हूँ...

                                                            पर मैं तो यहीं हूँ...

                                                            मैं तो बस 'हूँ'

                                                           जीवन का पथ, जो है मुझे चलना

                                                           मैं सोचती हूँ...

                                                           पर मैं तो यहीं हूँ...

                                                           मैं तो बस 'हूँ'

                                                           कौनसा पथ?

                                                           जाना कहाँ?

                                                           मैं तो यहीं हूँ...

                                                           मैं तो बस 'हूँ'

I wish to live the 'NOW'

 
I wish to die...
I wish to know, that I am dying in a small certain period...
so there is no possibility left of me...
wasting that small period of life,
worrying about others,
adjusting,
fighting,
running behind stupid things,
passing time,
being egoistic,
postponing my desire to live each moment intensely...

I forget...this life is going to end one day...
I forget...again and again...

I wish to know my death date, so I can experience life in its totality...
so I can bring all my energy, all my intensity into the NOW...
so...

the small period until death, is a Heaven Lived...

My life...

My life's control is in my hands...

I have cut the ropes which were in others hands...

No one can push, pull, force or tie any rope now...

No one can make me do something against me...

I will listen to the subtle but strong sound of my heart...

'I' have taken control of 'MY LIFE'...

the life given to me by God,

the life which is attached to death,

the life which is to be lived totally, intensely...

so when I die...

there is a smile on my face...

a relaxation and ecstasy in my eyes...

I have Lived, lived each moment of the beautiful life...

I could not have lived it better...

and...

I am ready now to die, with no regrets, no desires left...

with utmost ecstasy to be one with the ultimate...

A question asked...

I am asked a question, 'how to live life?'

It reminds me, 4 years back, when I read my friends diary, at the end of each page was written 'Life is beautiful'.
Life...what is life? I never thought about it, and it is beautiful???...ahhh...it struck me...

Thank god! it struck me then...better late than never.
But since then I am ON this journey, of life, knowing more, living more, as osho says, totally, intensely, each moment of this life...

The more I go deep into it, the more experienced I become, the more mysterious everything becomes...

Sometimes, I feel I really can live life better than I am now, and sometimes I feel ahhhh, this moment is all.
But one thing is certain, for me...Life is beautiful, soft, precious, wondrous.

I am blessed to have a small 6 months old baby (reet) near me, and each time I meet her, I am surprised to see
the wonder in her eyes,
the true authentic smile...
the tenderness of the hands...
the pure hug...
the natural 'being'...
the living in the moment...

Small children live in heaven 'always'... the society, the system, pressurize them to leave their heavens and be serious.

After becoming an engineer, working with good companies, successful in my eyes, getting married, living with my beloved, being a great wife, a great daughter, a great sister and a great friend...I am here to become a child again, to find my heaven...I was born with...
To de-condition myself of everything I have learnt, and live my life then way my soul wishes...

As osho says, being child-like with the inner lamp of awareness...

But I have a question, if after earning everything, I am not content and desire to be a child again, then why do we pay such a big cost, the cost of our natural self...
As a parent, I would really be cautious and see when does my child starts to lose his/her heaven, I wont let that happen...

So, I am also searching the answer to this question 'how to live life', and trying to know it from the small 6 months old baby...

So Sweetheart! you have to find your own answer, you have to do your own journey...
But I know, you know, 'Your journey has begun

God bless you!

Love

Living slow motion....

While hugging, one slows down...
while loving, one slows down...
feeling the breeze, one slows down...
listening to the water falling, one slows down...
seeing and admiring beauty, one slows down...
enjoying a cup of tea, sip by sip, one slows down...
looking into the eyes of beloved, one slows down...
a mother feeding the baby, slows down...

to experience everything beautiful in existence, one slows down...
life can be lived and enjoyed, only by slowing down...
a moment is lived, by being here, not running for the next moment, next day, next week, next year, years after years...


why do we postpone???
a hug
a gesture of love or thanks
a mail or message
a small bouquet of flowers to a much deserving and loving mom or papa, a wife or husband, a friend or beloved...

what are we running for after all?
we are just moving closer to death...the value paid for running, achieving, is too high,...
Its our life...

slowing down has a beauty that can only be experienced...
wish we enjoy each moment of the beautiful life, innnnnnn slow motion...

what say???

:)

Haaaa...my life...

I wish to live the most beautiful life possible
a life of freedom
a life of love
a life where each moment is divine
a life where I am true to myself always
a life where I am overflowing to give
a life full of dance, laughter and bliss

I wish to make this dream a reality...

bhagwaan ji, please help me...

AMEN

Moving on to a new journey...

Life takes us on such twists and turns, gives us so much, the journey of life is just so unexpected and amazing :)
We rarely sit back and look...thank for whatever life has given us.

Today, 17th October, 2008, is one such day when I have got a chance to look back the path I have followed. And I feel truly blessed...

The journey of 'me' started when for the first time I came out of the womb, of a secure life with my parents, when 'I came to bangalore'. I am so thankful to God for sending me, for creating my path, for giving me this life.

I am a rich being today...In the last 3 years, I have got so much that it cannot even be expressed in words. My life has changed from a completely materialistic life to a beautiful and a thanksgiving life. I am transformed, yes I feel, I know, I have transformed.

Today is my last working day in my office SAP labs, bangalore, and tomorrow is my last day in bangalore, and there's a heart full of thankfulness, and eyes full of tears. I feel blessed to have tears in my eyes, I am crying because I have fallen in love with so many people, with this life, and I am lucky to receive so much. I am crying because I can see so many beings, whom I have met in this life, whom I am gonna miss, and who say that they will miss me.
Thank u bhagwaan ji...

The journey of life has been even more beautiful for me than ever before, and I am leaving bangalore to enter into the next phase of this journey, to see what life has in store for me.

And as I leave, I am taking with me, a 'New ME', the memories, the blessings, the love, the beauty.

For all you people, I have just thanks and wishes for a beautiful beautiful life.

My bhagwaan ji bless you!
Tanu

Life...my ultimate wish...

I wish to live a very simple life...:)
Very simple, so simple that each and every little thing becomes divine, as small a thing as drinking of water, cooking for my sweetheart or my friends, washing utensils, standing in the queue, typing on this keyboard, washing hands...every little thing...
A life so simple where there are no expectations from anybody, no complexities of relationships, no bindings of the mind...where there is just love and where I follow just my heart...
Where life becomes so pure, as pure and simple as a new born child...
where there are no more wishes left, where there is just plain gratitude of life itself, of everything gifted by god...
I wish to live a very simple life...:)