I wish to live the 'NOW'

 
I wish to die...
I wish to know, that I am dying in a small certain period...
so there is no possibility left of me...
wasting that small period of life,
worrying about others,
adjusting,
fighting,
running behind stupid things,
passing time,
being egoistic,
postponing my desire to live each moment intensely...

I forget...this life is going to end one day...
I forget...again and again...

I wish to know my death date, so I can experience life in its totality...
so I can bring all my energy, all my intensity into the NOW...
so...

the small period until death, is a Heaven Lived...